many things happen~

最近发生的事，

有好有坏啦~

今天，

一位朋友，

和另一位翻脸了。

她好伤心~

但这些对我，

已经没有什么感觉了。

被抛弃过，明白那种感受。

但既然做不了什么改变，

唯一可以做的就是接受。

希望我那位朋友可以释怀，

或许，失去这一位朋友对你对你来说并不是一件坏事。

我自己呢？

哈哈~

最近过得还不错。

昨天，

和傻婆sms到11.45p.m.

不知道我说的话，

她会不会放在心上勒？？

我是无心的阿！

不要怪我拉~

对不起！我不懂你发生了什么事。

希望和你的感情能越来越好咯~

让我关心你吧！哈哈！

这一个月，

来作个总结，

是我有史以来，

过过最痛苦的一个月。

不懂泪流了多少。

这种感觉，你懂吗？

但，谢谢你，让我知道，承诺这两个字，

其实可信度并不高。

当初把话说得多好听，

但说，总比做的来得容易。

你说我们还是朋友，

结果你不理我。

什么都你说~

你赢咯~

到底你怎么了？

这首歌的歌词，

很像我想和你说的话，

“话总说不清楚 该怎么明了

一字一句像圈套

旧帐总翻不完 谁无理取闹

你的双手甩开刚好的微妙

然后战火再燃烧

我们背对背拥抱 滥用沉默在咆哮

爱情来不及变老 葬送在烽火的玩笑

我们背对背拥抱 真话兜着圈子来乱绕

即使想让我知道 即使想让你知道 爱的警告

只是想让我知道 只是想让你知道 这警告

我不要一直到 形同陌路变成自找

既然可以拥抱 就不要轻易放掉”

很明显，

这很ngam我的心情，

既然可以拥抱就不要轻易放掉！

但，你不只放掉我们的感情，

也切断我们的友情!

对你很失望了...

如果你现在问我，

还爱XX吗？

我会告诉你，

不！

还喜欢XX吗？

不！

对XX还有感觉吗？

有..

我也不知道为什么，

还没能完全将你放下。

也许太用心的人，

往往得到的下场就是这样。

是我对你期望太高。

其实，

如果这才是真正的你，

谢谢你让我知道！

让我能提早退出这场游戏

如果这是你，

虽然我不舍得！真的不舍！

但我会很庆幸！

我看清楚你了。

谢谢你让我知道，

你不值得我去爱，

而且，

我也不会要一个，

不懂得关心我的人。

我永远把你当朋友，

但，不会再求你和我说话了。

没有这个必要~

我承认我会伤心，

但不会太久！绝对不会！

我对你好失望！

对一些事情的看法有了改变。

以后，

我不会在坚持，

拥有一件东西的时间有多长。

不会再轻易相信承诺。

我所知道的，

是我会珍惜眼前所有的！

我不会再让任何东西从我手中溜走！

至少我会努力挽回一切，

不会轻易放弃任何我心爱的东西。

我不会再在乎能拥有一样东西多久！

但我会努力维持我所拥有的！

让她、他、它，成为我的天长地久！

今日金句：我们一定要拥抱痛苦，并以它作为旅程的燃料。

Lame day la~

During the morning quite happy,

because we were given anugerah,

for our PMR^^

and I met my friend from other school,

Tun Ju Ern

Tun wor...haha...better than Tan Sri^^

2day after recess so soi la~

after recess was X subject,

so..we went to the XX lo

we late for about 10 minits i think.

aiya...after recess is like this de la...

sure will late de ma..

but then we kena X

how many minits we late,

we are going to stand double the time in the outside street

wow...actually no so sad la,

haha...

we talk n talk outside,

then kena X again..

so we decided to late for half an hour next time^^

so we will be standing outside for 1 hour,

don't need to X X X

haha^^

then after the X period,

before we went out,

kena X again..

wow..

X wanna challenge us,

X do not want to teach us how to write X,

we have to do our own,

if wrong,

X will X your X on the spot..

so scare wor~=.=///

I will figure it out and do the X until you can talk NOTHING !!

Hope I can success^^

Then after school lagi soi~

I went out there, XX bus is there,

I do not really want to take that bus,

Because of 2 things..

I hate the driver and also XX bus.

but bo bian~ i scare i go back late,

so I was forced to take that bus

RM 1.40 gone~

After i reach kendung,

he does not stop at JY's house there,

He stopped before my factory...

I have to walk...

walk walk walk..

A bus passed by~

CITY LINER!!!

Walau ! If i wait for a short period of time,

I can save my walking step and also the 40 sens.

Then walk to my factory there,

before I crossed the road...

Toyota appear...

OMG...if I wait again just now,

I can save my RM1.40...

Lame day~

今日金句：父母亲，对于一个二十岁的人而言，恐怕就像一栋旧房子：你住在它里面，它为你遮风挡雨，给你温暖和安全，但是房子就是房子，你不会和房子去说话、去沟通、去体贴它、讨好它。搬家具时碰破了一个墙角，你也不会去说“对不起”。

Afraid-ing

I thought I can handle form4 work.

But...

it's not so hard actually...

but seems don't know many things

specially add math..

why suddenly I become so ...poor in my math

not very poor la..

just forget many things..

And sometimes cannot remember the formula

I hope can do well in form4

specially with the subject I love the most..

Math and Science

I hope can do well in my 1st exam in form 4,

Stress is coming...

I feel it..

So I will prepare well to face them,

And also to face this "honeymoon Year"

今日金句：如果你要给一个孩子适应社会，就不可以给他一个绝对标准。因为如果这样做，他就不能适应世界变化了。

Yea~

呵呵~认识了一位朋友，我叫她陆陆~

她说我的部落格没有华语字所以很显，

那今天就来一个华语post吧^^

今天是越野赛跑，

跟平常一样到学校，结果就遇到第一个问题。

我的号码没有拿！留在班上。

还好有宏立陪我会学校拿^^

然后就做senam robik咯

显的啦~

然后就开始跑了！

我有两个plan，

Plan A - 四十分钟跑完全程。

Plan B - 一个小时内跑完。

结果Plan A 失败了 T_T...

Plan B 成功了！

我用53分钟跑完全程！！

破我自己的纪录！

HAHAHA!!!

累到~~~

脚也很痛。

但什么都没有拿到=.=///

明年最后一年了，

再努力！！！

过程中，

遇到两个duty的肥子，

“阿毛加油！！”

“GOGOGO”

这两句是我听到最多的，

哈哈!

原来supporter还蛮多的^^

谢谢他们啦~

还有敏儿，阿萱，谢谢他们两个！

还有两个肥子！

迟点呢。。。

还有两场补习，

加油吧！

为了 Du~~~~

今日金句：一个坚强的人，不向命运屈服，反而化为成功的助力。相信每件事情的到临，一定都有上天特别的恩典，不再为所失去的感到遗憾，应该要从当中去体认新的契机。

Daily Life~

ok well~

I think this is how I spend my daily life

Weekdays got school ma

so everyday wake up ~

bla bla bla~~~

then went back home lor~

Monday and Tuesday is my turn to wash dishes after lunch

Then my plan everyday is

I use PC during the afternoon

I wont do any homework in the afternoon except I need to use pc to finish that work

So afternoon is the time for me to msn~blogging~and so on.

4.30pm or 5.00pm is the time for me to exercise.

play badminton or skipping

I want to grow taller!!!

Then night time~

for me to do my homework

because this is the only time I have the mood to do my homework

then mayb watching TV...and so on

sms-ing~~~

Then sleep lor~

今日金句：很多人都喜欢有样学样，其实你懂得当中的原理和奥妙吗？学习要抱着打破沙锅问到底的精神。

what happen 2day was...

2day as usual we have our assembly,

as usual Aikal as a ketua kelas go and hide behind,

but finally Dean catch him back ^^

after the assembly...

"Kepada siapa yang tidak berhadir ke latihan rumah sukan XXX pada minggu lepas sila tunggu di tapak perhimpunan selepas perhimpunan ini."

wa...

me and JY look at each other and smile^^

you get what I mean?

haha~

so...after that went back to class..

actually this morning..already recall something..

which I never want to remember

but I failed

so,

it spoil my mood

I do not have any mood 2day...

when I look at the key chain I ask myself

the key chain is there..

but does it become meaningless?

for you and me...

今日金句：你的态度决定你的心情，影响你的健康，甚至改变你今天的际遇。凡事多往好处想，这是心理健康之道，也是幸福的不二法门。

Suddenly

2day suddenly feel nothing already

I am no longer care what you are doing,

I am no longer have the feeling

Mm...

What does it mean?

I do not know~

I think I am ok now.

Suddenly something appear in my mind.

which is:

This world got so many girls,

or I can said that

This world got so many pretty girls,

why Should I choose the 1 who do not care me at all?

This world got so many pretty girls,

why I just look at her 1 person?

How about the others?

I believe that, I can find a new girl who really know how to treasure me

You are no longer the 1 who I love,

Who I love,

是以前的你，而不是现在的你。

使你变了？

还是这就是你？

只是以前我没有发现而已。

我依然相信爱情，

依然相信承诺，

只是这一次，

要看对象是谁了！

this year,

from now onwards

I will put my effort on my studies.

Everything must be perfect from now on^^

Hey Friends!

I AM BACK!!!!

今日金句：何必为明天忧虑呢？专心过好今天，活出生命的色彩，当晚上安然入眠时，那就是对今天最好的掌声和礼赞。

Why...

Why I just cannot accept the truth?

Why your face always appear in my mind..

Why I become like this?

Why You become like this?

Why We become like this..?

Why do I need to suffer like this?

Since you feel like nothing...

I do not have the ability

I cant act like nothing especially in font of you

I do not know what to do

I love you in my deep heart

I care about you every second

And yet I fail

And yet you give up

And yet you deny my effort

And yet

And yet I cant forget you

And yet...

What is the problem?

What is the matter now?

What is in my mind now?

What is in your mind now?

You promise will never leave me

You promise will never give me a puppy love

You promise that you know what to do

You promise that you will keep your promise

You promise that your promises are forever promises

You promise will never let me alone

I never think of these days before

I never think that we will become like this

I never think that you finally forget your promise

I never think that you will leave me

I never think that my 1st relationship will end up like this

I never think that you will hurt me..

I never think...it hurt so bad..

I am not myself

I do not like this

I do not want to lose you..

I do not want to lose myself

I do not want to lose us...

When can everything be OK?

When...

今日金句：你现在默默的付出，或许不能一下子看到成果，然而当树籽中入土后，总有发芽滋长的一天。为后代子孙种下善种，有一天会成为一片茂盛的树林。

new songs

this 2 songs ... is exactly how I feel...haiz..

切歌

用力唱一首歌 忽然被你切歌

这歌词很像我 心里够曲折 多么适合

就算没有音乐的伴奏 唱到声音都哑了

我会记得 你曾是我最爱的情歌

改篇

我为你付出着 突然你放弃了

如果真的爱我 为何放弃了 多么不舍

最后你坚持着要走了 我还能做什么呢

我会记得 你还是我最爱的女生

抱歉

能不能够让我们从来一遍

是否对我还有相同感觉

我不想要再对自己抱怨

也不想再狼狈

能不能够让我们回到从前

当那一天当我们还强烈

你说过要陪我走到永远

还是你在敷衍

改篇

能不能够让我们从来一遍

是否对我还有相同感觉

我不想要再对自己欺骗

也不想再狼狈

能不能够让我们回到从前

当那一天当我们还相恋

你说过要陪我走到永远

还是你在敷衍

看回我们的讯息，那就是我放不下你最大的原因...我不想做会令我后悔的决定，那就是我的决定。

今日金句：自私似乎是人类的本性。许多时候遇到与我们利益相冲突时，我们本能的自我保护就会出来，但也容易伤到别人。想想最近我们的人际关系是否正面对一些冲突？其实多吃一点亏，反而是多占了便宜。

Relationship Advice: 10 Ways to Prevent a Break Up

I think this is useful to those who having a relationship or those who going to start a relationship. This is a lessonthat you must learn. If I read this earlier..what will happen between me and her.......

Although it is long, but it helps..really..Let's take a look.

1. Communicate. Communication is important. If you find that when you try to communicate your feelings to your partner it always leads to an argument, try writing your feelings down. Read through what you’ve written. If you find things that are just petty problems with no real validity, eliminate them. Try to find the sources behind your words. For example, jealousy, are you jealous because you know he/she is cheating, or does it go deeper? Did someone cheat on you in the past and now you don’t trust anyone? Is your partner giving you what you need to feel secure? Once you realize where the feelings are coming from, you can address fixing the problem.


2. Resist making accusations. Approach your partner calmly, without being defensive. Tell him/her the problem. Don’t be accusing or they will become defensive and yes, you will end up in an argument. If you find it’s easier to write it in a letter, then do so. Leave while they read it so you aren’t hovering over them, waiting for their reaction. Let them process what you have said. Again, do not be accusing. Tell them you want to make your relationship better. Have suggestions for BOTH of you, not just them. Be sure you know the core problem and aren’t just mentioning a symptom.


3. Refrain from insulting your partner during arguments. Fighting dirty can quickly become a habit and eventually someone will say something that the other person cannot forget, or worse, forgive.


4. Take time to tell your partner why you love him/her. Not once, but often. This can be something as small as a compliment on how they look. Your partner needs to know you appreciate them. Don’t just assume they know. Everyone likes to be reminded they are loved.


5. Be supportive and look for ways to give your partner the things they need the most. Even if they don’t tell you what they need, you can figure it out if you pay attention. Some people have a hard time telling you what they need but there are clues. If you’re not sure, ask.


6. Don’t neglect yourself. If your needs aren’t being met, find a way to let your partner know. If you are unhappy, you will eventually blame your partner. It’s much easier to let them know, in a positive way, the things you need.


7. Never try to solve a problem when you are angry. Take time to cool down. I know this can seem impossible at times but think about it. Is anything ever really solved when you are yelling at each other?


8. Set aside some time for just the two of you. If not once a week, then at least once a month. This should be quality, alone time, however you two choose to spend it. You might try arranging a specific day each week and take turns planning what you will do.


9. Discuss decisions that affect the both of you and try to find a solution that will keep you both happy. Never make an important decision that affects you both without talking to your partner.


10. Don’t Lie! Everyone lies occasionally. It’s in our nature. This isn’t an excuse to lie to your partner. Every time you are caught in a lie, a little more trust is taken away. A healthy relationship requires trust. Never ever lie about things important to the relationship. You’re better off facing the music if you’ve done something wrong then being caught in a lie.


11. This won’t keep you together but it is important to mention.Know when it’s time to leave and make the break .Don’t let anyone use you or abuse you. Most problems can be worked out if both people in the relationship make an effort to improve things. There are some exceptions. It’s time to leave if the relationship becomes abusive. Do not hope things will get better because he/she says they will change. Leave! If at some future time they actually do change, you can consider getting back together then. Another deal breaker is infidelity. If your partner cheats on you, there is a good chance that even if you do stay together, the trust that keeps a relationship alive will be gone. I’m not saying you can’t survive it, but it will take a great deal of effort from both people and your partner will have to stop. Never give them more than one chance to do so or you will be setting yourself up for a very destructive emotional roller coaster. If your partner sees that it’s possible to cheat and you will keep forgiving, why would they change?

今日金句：我们常常用各种理由掩饰所犯的罪行，甚至以较不明显的方式来承认自己的罪。只是这一切都是欲盖弥彰，并不能真正地逃避罪恶的控诉。

Hardworking teacher...

wa...better than what I think,

all the teachers so hardworking..

I thought do not need to study this week...

but...

T_T..

well...

Add Math...

the teacher...

er...dunno how to say.

use Eng+Malay to teach.

Then normal math..

as usual. I enjoy Puan Kuay's teaching.

then is Bio...

so...boring..

can sleep well if listen to what she said..

Then Physic..

At 1st Dean was disappointed with the teacher who teach us.

I do not know why but after she came in..

I understood.

she is so... *** **

so sienz..

1st day enter the class straight gt homework..

OMG..

I do not want to leave my work until the last minute

so...I going to do my work,

bye~^^

今日金句：雾气就好像我们身上的错误一样。我们往往很努力地想把它除掉，但却无法解决。唯有靠着清洁的良心的真实的反省，使昨日的罪恶，不成为今日的缠累。

1st day~

well 2day is the 1st day of school life.

when return to school,

everything remain the same la..

last night I knew there was raining outside

so...I hope it will continue so that we do not need to have perhimpunan

but...老天作美..bo bian

as usual, I stand in front.

Leader ma..

but this time a bit different.

because..

Pengetua just sit in front of me

OMG..

but ok la...do not think too much.

he will not eat me de.

after perhimpunan,

Was Me and Chong's "job"

every year , during the 1st day of the school,

we will become "scanner"

wahaha...

scan for pretty girls..(do not think too much)

but hor...

"semua pelajar tingkatan 1 sila pergi ke dewan mengikut jalan belakang..."

sienz lo..

then is 分班.

I am in Intelek^^

we are about 16 Chinese in the class...

I feel so happy that Kuay and Puan Malah still teaching us^^

Others all Malay teacher,

and 1more..

the toilet.

of course is boy's toilet.

become so so beautiful liao.

so nice..

but dunno how long can it last.

haiz...

wish can last for half a year^^

consider very very good liao!

1st day of school,

大家的感想，

Boring Dao~~~~~~~~

nothing to do..

but..

I will start prepare my form 4..

no play play!!!

Friends!

Let's work 2gether!!

今日金句： 塞翁失马，焉知非福。有时在苦难的遭遇中，常常隐藏着上苍极大的恩典，学习为你所失去的感恩吧！

wishes??

Hey my friends

any wishes for this year??

haha...

for me..

1st of all, I want to grow taller!!!

please la...i beg this for so many years liao...

then, everything in this year run smoothly

then, improve my english

then, I hope can handle Form4's work successfully.

that's all for me,

how about you^^?

今日金句：我们是否也曾经犯下这样的错误，在不知对方的处境下，随意地妄下评断呢？让我们转换一个角度去看周边的人，用心灵的眼睛去看，用最真的心情去体会，你将会有另一番感受。